Old School Runescape fizz112.com

I haven't been on Runescape for decade, since I was a wee nerdy teen. Decided to go back after hearing about Iron Man mode. Basically it prevents trading with players, you must provide and build up everything yourself as a true adventurer would. To make it even more of a challenge I am also not going to use any wiki's or guides to help complete the quests. It will be down to my own brainpower and exploration. A REAL ADVENTURE. Also, streaming my whole journey on Twitch!

Disclaimer: some parts will be boring as I grind lol. I don't min/max either. It's very casual

Glorious Colours fizz112.com

Oh man, it's always been a while since I have been back on this but I have had a lot more time on my hands these days. Mainly due to the fact DotA 2 is dead and I am in no way into the new update at all. Which is a good thing I guess, frees me up to do more stuff online and maybe even get off my butt a bit more.

Looking at my site, it felt okay but I was starting to get off the idea of keeping my whole theme orange and yellow. I never got round to finishing it completely, most of it was just a half-baked attempt. Re-designing just feels bad because you have let go of what you created. The design and all the code was your baby. Neglected and untidy but all your own to love nonetheless.

I wanted to start from scratch and maybe go the black/white and hipster font look. I also thought about redesigning the framework so it would make it easier to change designs (and sticking with the analogy) without having to throw the baby out with the bathwater. I knew it was finally time to move away from static CSS and have a go with some pre-processors, specifically LESS. Dreamweaver also made this easier as it now had a pretty good built in system for it, probably wouldn't have bothered otherwise.

However, after playing around and seeing if I could just compile my current design, I started playing with colours and auto-generating colour palettes. I forgot how fun and colourful coding could be! I thought and wondered about the possibilities. What if I could just create the perfect algorithm and pump out an almost infinite number of different setups? Turns out you can, and I did. Every minute the code will churn out a colour scheme and hopefully the colours on the page will be distinct enough that you'll still be able to read and browse!

I did think about letting it refresh every second or even auto-refreshing the colour scheme but then it was just confusing to navigate. I don't think anyone stays on this site longer than a minute so from a user experience it should be fairly consistent until they leave. You're welcome to stay longer though!

Depression fizz112.com

Life currently is not treating me well. Found myself sitting in my chair many times over the past couple of weeks doing nothing but thinking about how life sucks. A friend I really admired and valued our relationship so highly seemed to have taken a weird turn and the most frustrating thing is that I don't know how to go about fixing it. I don't have the courage to speak out to them and let them know how it's making me feel and what I can do to make it normal again. I just want it back so badly so I can stop crying myself to sleep every night. I just feel so alone at the moment.

Family is compounding the effect as that turned to shit about the same time. Now I can't even seek out the comfort of my closest friend to help ease the suffering. I feel completely isolated and now there's just no drive in my heart to do anything. All I end up doing is laying around in my room brooding these sad thoughts and turning on the water works. The office used to be a safe place away from it all but there's nothing there for me any more either.

I feel like it would just be easier to keel over and just spiral down into a bottomless hole but there's that small slice of hope that is clinging on. I really just want my friend back, although that hope is constantly being crushed everyday and the pain of that is so much it makes the bottom of the hole that much more inviting.